Month: June 2019

Survive with thunder

Today I was thinking about being clean. Clean from pain, hurt, sorrows, grief. Free from feelings with negativity. Is it possible for me to reach a state like that? At this moment I doubt it. I don’t believe my traumas will ever disappear. I believe they stay, they exist, they are part of me. It’s another part of me that needs to heal to cope with these feelings properly. That’s what I believe in. That I can be healed in a way I have found a healthy lifestyle to cope with my daily depressions and anxiety’s. I am not there yet. Last few days I have felt really disappointed about myself. That I wasn’t able to perform as I wanted to. What needs to be healed is the part that can say it’s okay. There will be other and better days. Today the rain fell and dark clouds dominated your well being. But as we know, the sun will appear soon enough. So when the sun shines, you remember the rain and thunder. And you …

Need a moment

A yoga holiday again. Or calling myself sick. There are many reasons for my free schedule this week. After a turbulent month, I shouldn’t feel guilty. But I do. I even didn’t practice at home. My body is stressed at the moment. Hopefully tomorrow or next weekend I will be able to do some yin yoga and next week it’s yoga as usual ~ 🙏🏽🧘‍♀️🌸~ #yoga #yogadaily #yogalifestyle #yogainspiration #healingjourney #yogatransformation #yogabeginner #yogastudent #yogaathome #yogabreak #yogabalance #yogabreathing

Unnatural balance

Yesterday I decided not to go to my usual hatha yoga class. After my balletperformance on Wednesday, I needed a weekend of rest. No obligations, but I did do a little routine by myself. It’s still difficult to find the best routine. So yesterday I followed my body. I tried to remember the postures that excited me the most. The postures that made me feel energized, even though they challenge me. It turned out to be a good routine and it’s nice to feel I made some progress. Balances are getting so much better now. Although I need to stay really concentrated, I am succeeding in keeping my body in the best position. I guess it’s the same mentally. I am able to take care of myself in a better way. I feel more balanced mentally, then a few months ago. Although, I need to stay focused. It’s not a natural thing for me to be focused and balanced. It feels unnatural, but I know it’s better. I am not as balanced and stable as …

Wonder why

There are days I wonder about the purpose of my actions. What’s the point in being positive and happy, if so many people are in pain? Can I be happy? Am I allowed to be successful in any way? And I don’t mean successful in a material way, but in my heart. Am I allowed to feel joy, when someone else is in pain? I can’t decide. All I know is that it is not how I am. Although I can be relieved with the thought of having my blessings, it makes me sad that the pain in our world doesn’t seem to end. I don’t want to look away, I want to be aware and I don’t want to distance myself from the experiences of other people. No matter how terrible those stories are, I should feel them. To make myself aware that all of this, is not all that matters. The most important thing is 💜~ 🙏🏽🌸✨~ #yogalifestyle #yogainspiration #healingjourney #pain #control #yoga #yogalove #yogalover #yogagirl #healing #grief #sad #hypersensitivity #sensitivity #anxiety

A breakfast start

First a good breakfast before leaving for my hatha yoga class later. It took some time before I found a good eat schedule. So I am not sure I can finish this meal 😊 so one of my sandwiches will end in my yoga bag for after my class. It will be a busy day. Which needs some healthy food for good energy ~ avocado – egg salad – cucumber- 2 slices of toast ~ #yogalifestyle #yogainspiration #food #foodporn #avocado🥑 #avocado #avocadotoasts #egg #eggtoast #healthyfood #breakfast #foodie #foodies #foodiesofinsta