Month: April 2019

Trying Vinyasa again

After a stressful and emotional period I have signed myself in for a Vinyasa class. A few months ago I actively joined the Slow Flow class, but after a second loss I was forced to take it slowly. The death of my grandmother had a big impact on me emotionally and physically. I feel the energy in my body is confused. Taking this Vinyasa class is scary, but I really want this. Because I also feel it’s an exercise I can learn and benefit from ~ just do what I can and most of all enjoy yoga, in every way ~ 🧘‍♀️ 🌷🙏🏽~ #yoga #vinyasa #yogagirl #yogalife #yogalifestyle Advertisements

Wait and be silent

Doubt. Even though I enjoy Yoga, I am not sure whether this is the path for me to discover myself. When I write this. Or when I this comes to my mind, I do realize it’s my fear talking. My deep insecurity about myself. Always not knowing results in never knowing. Always thinking that what you do is not meant to be. That’s what adoption does with your mind and spirit. Or what it does with me. I never know. I am not able to trust. The world. My self. Or all the people in my life. When I discovered that my adoption was not performed accordingly and probably not legally as well, it shook everything inside of me. It broke me and I thought less about myself. I remember saying to someone: Who am I? She said, a sweet girl and I couldn’t believe her. Slowly I try to enter more into me. Who am I? What do I feel? What do I want? Where does my heart and my spirit leads me to? …

Breath and be strong

Breathing is one of the exercises of yoga. It sounds easy, but it’s not. The way of breathing is so much different than I was used to and in the beginning it gave me a sense of restlessness. When doing my final relaxation exercise, a feeling of panic sometimes came over me. So much I became afraid of it. Luckily I pulled through and it seems breathing becomes more controlled. At least I thought. It’s still a learning process, as my panic and anxiety attacks are not cured. Yoga will hopefully help me in controlling these states and feeling stronger in moments that I fear all these years ~ 🏹🌸~ #yoga #yogahealing #yogainspiration #yogagirl #yogalife #yogalifestyle #anxiety #panicattack

Why Soul Search

With yoga I hope to discover the unknown in my soul. Being adopted and not knowing where my roots are, is still a very difficult and sometimes painful journey. Last year I discovered yin and Hatha Yoga. I hope it can take me to my spiritual roots and a little bit closer to where I came from ~ 🧘‍♀️ ~ #yoga #yinyoga #hathayoga #yogainspiration #soulsearch #truesoul #oldsoul